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Thursday, February 9, 2012

Coming to Term(s)

Clematis on Fence Downtown
Yesterday our baby would have been full term.
The women that were pregnant when I was have their wee ones in their arms or are ready to any day now. 
I am truly so happy for them.
Life is so precious and fleeting. 
I took some special time yesterday for me.
I went and had a long massage and let the tension go.
I cried and let the feelings flow.
A conversation with a stranger made me realize that
I've come to terms...
It's okay for me to mourn my son.
It's okay for me to be happy too.


Life as a Convert (Khourt) said...

I dont have any words to express to you, but you are in my prayers.

panamamama said...

Thank u.

Kathy said...

I know and understand how you feel. You will always grieve for their sweet life lost but you will live, be happy and carry them in your heart forever. I love you.

panamamama said...

Thanks, Tia. I'm not quite to the happy part, but on the way now. Love you too!

April said...

I am so sorry...I didn't know you'd suffered a miscarriage. I've had 2 myself, so I know how very painful this time can be. I don't think your heart ever stops aching, but you certainly grow more appreciative of all that you have. Praying for you!

panamamama said...

April, yes. We lost this baby boy in October at 18 weeks. This was my 6th loss I think. My body just fights the babies.

Dawn Saros-Kirk said...

I didn't realize either. I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. I can't begin to imagine how you must feel.

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